Friday, August 31, 2012

Photo Book

I made a photo book and finally finished it today! I absolutely love it!

You can go to Shutterfly photo books to make your own.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Blessing Day

Our sweet baby boy was blessed today August 12, 2012.

We actually blessed him the day Wayne gave his homecoming talk and it worked out so perfect to have everyone come out and celebrate an awesome missionary and beautiful baby.

From the actual day- He had a poop explosion on his  blessing outfit .


Here's the outfit- cute blue tie....
white onesie, chubby cheeks
I had to show off his cute legs.
We actually had some blue crocheted shoes that Jay wore when he was a baby that we borrowed but he gave them back to his mom already....these shoe socks are cute too.
Aren't those legs so yummy?
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I don't know what this face is about but man that cracks me up,
He is such a happy baby.

Feeling Loved

What a surprise! Last thing I expected on a normal day!!!

They are beautiful!!! 

Monday, August 27, 2012

Milestone

Baby G rolled over today!

He was leaning to look up at me and he just leaned and leaned and plop over he went from stomach to back. I cheered and he looked worried and confused.

Man is he growing up.

Thoughts on HypnoBabies After Birth

So now that you've delivered a baby and can look back and reflect on your experience with labor and delivery, what do you think about it all now?

For those of you interested in how I prepared for birth and what I think about it now, here we go:

First of all, what is HypnoBabies? 

For those of you who don't know let me explain:
Hypnobabies is really just a series of techniques to calm your mind and your body. It reminded me a lot of yoga- concentrating on deep belly breaths and using calming words like "peace", "relax" etc.
It is not what you first think as hypnosis- someone taking over your mind- it is you controlling your mind and the Hypnobabies classes prepares you to think about childbirth as comfortable and natural and that your body is meant to give birth.

You can find out what mom's say about Hypnobabies and more about it here.


 Why did I desire to have a natural birth?
Have you ever seen a movie about someone giving birth? Or listened to horrific and horrible stories of women and all they went through for their kids to come into the world? It's almost a competition sometimes- one lady will go off on this and this that happened and then another women will contribute that the last story was nothing, hers was even worse and so and and so forth. That's just accepted because that's what you hear all the time. And I had never really thought about it until I lived with my cousin Brooke who had her first baby naturally.  As a non-pregnant girl who wasn't even married at the time, having children seemed far out and I didn't really realize that that was considered a big deal to people- I just thought that was great that she was able to deliver her child naturally and left it at that.

When I became pregnant, everything changed. I really began wondering about natural birth after I had read and done some research on food and medicine. A lot of times people have some kind of problem with their body and seek medical attention to help with the problem when really diet alone could have reversed/fixed the problem. Just knowing that if you are giving your body the nutrients it needs (and not filling it with sugar/processed/junk food) then really your body is pretty amazing at healing and functioning the way God made it to work. I am not saying everything is always fixed by proper food or that we don't need medicine/doctors because I know they do save lives- I am just saying that our bodies are very amazing and a lot of the time there is a "bandaid" solution (i.e. medicine) for problems with the body that could easily be fixed by proper nutrition.

So- just having this knowledge and understanding that my body is truly a miracle and I just need to feed it the right stuff gets you wondering what else I really don't understand about the human body. When I became pregnant, it was inevitable really that I would be interested now in what a woman's body was capable of and if this was one of those instances where medicine wasn't needed normally.

Once you are on the path to wanting to know more, it's hard to stop! I checked out 20 books from the library on natural birth and started talking to people who had gone through it themselves (my mother-in-law had all 5 kids naturally and my aunt had 3 out of 5 of hers naturally) and my cousin just gave birth to her 3rd without medical intervention!

The thing that got me the most excited about natural birth was reading about a physician named Grantley Dick Reid.  He was studying to be a doctor and happened to help a woman who was giving birth in the street. He talked about how the woman really was just concentrating and that she wasn't screaming and cursing- she was just breathing and the baby and birth happened so smoothly. It was so different than what he had been experiencing as an intern that he started really looking into it more and discovered some amazing things.

So, I bought some books from Amazon-(The Bradley Method, Ina May's Guide to Natural Childbirth, Giving Birth Naturally in a Hosptial, etc. ) and really started to see that women who have done a natural birth describe it as empowering and some even went as far as to say it was "pain-free". Our minds are incredible. I don't think anyone really understands the power of the mind, but I do know that what I have learned so far in my life is you are what you think. The ideas intrigued me.

Okay, Okay, so why?
The main reason I ended up really wanting a natural birth was because I wanted to feel those emotions your body is programmed to feel for a baby when you give birth. I wanted to avoid possible complications that can arise from having medical interventions. I wanted recovery to be quick and easy. I wanted to believe in my body. I wanted to believe that God, the perfect designer, would design a woman's body to be able to give birth without all the screaming and agony.


What did you learn from researching natural birth?
I learned a ton. The main thing I learned that I kept getting was that a woman's body is meant to give birth.  And another thing: our society associates childbirth with pain. And who wants to feel pain? If you have a choice, it's easy to of course choose the "no pain" option.

I learned the mind is powerful and you can tell your body what to feel. Words are so important. Instead of contraction, use "pressure wave". When you say the word "peace" it can actually cause a chemical reaction in your body to help you relax. Your body knows what words mean and responds accordingly.



Why did it change during labor? Did I get an epidural because HypnoBabies wasn't "working"?
As I look back:
#1 I think the main reason I lost my focus was because I believed that somehow I had caused my body to go into labor: I was drinking raspberry leaf tea, squatting, walking, etc. and I was scared that the baby wasn't ready and I had somehow caused it. I really thought I wanted him to come early but when it happened I felt guilty like I did something wrong and I really was expecting to go another 2-3 weeks, knowing most first time moms go 41 weeks.
#2 reason: I wasn't sure I was in labor until I went to the hospital and was told I was already in active labor. I think that really threw me. I didn't know what to expect from my contractions and they were nothing like I imagined.
#3 reason: In the hospital I did become afraid of the end part. I don't know, it was almost like I believe a woman's body was meant to do it and I believed it to be true but somehow for me personally I wasn't sure.
#4 reason: I stopped using my HypnoBabies tools and didn't even try to listen to the recording once I thought of the epidural.
#5 reason: I didn't claim the birth as my own. I let myself be put into the hospital setting and I took a backseat approach almost- just kind of not having the authority over my birth. I felt like after I had to be hooked up to the IV and not move around, that now how was I supposed to do it? I didn't have a back-up plan of what I would do. Also, after the anesthesiologist was called and I was thinking maybe I could do the natural way, I pushed the thought away because I was making it difficult for someone else. This was my birth and I should have claimed it as such, even if I had to be annoying to someone or cause them to get out of bed and come to the hospital just to be sent home again and so what if I decided that I did want it again? I wish I could have had the courage to claim the birth as mine and be a little bit of a pain if that's what was going to make it happen the way I had wanted it to.

What tools did I use from HypnoBabies during labor that I will use again? What tools did I not use that I wish I would have?
Oh I love all of the tools!
The finger drop is useful but I realized that I needed to be moving around which means I wish I would have used the "middle-switch" tool more: which is imagery of a switch being in the middle position. Off switch means your whole body is relaxed- even if you wanted to move anything you just couldn't because you are that relaxed or "off" and middle switch is everything is "off" from your chest down through the middle of your thighs. Then you can move around the room using your arms and legs but letting your abdomen remain relaxed. If I could have practiced the middle switch more I really believe that would have been HUGE.

Another one that I wish I had used was the CD at the time I arrived at the hospital. I got there and when your mind starts wandering and wondering I think the CD would have reassured me that I could do it. I know I will be listening next time.

Do I wish to have a natural birth in the future? Will I use HypnoBabies again?

I am so looking forward to using HypnoBabies again in the future. I would love more than anything to have the natural birth I have dreamed of. The one where I feel empowered by the birth of my child. The one where I am comfortable and trusting that my body feels the way it does for a purpose and that purpose is bringing a new life into the world. Knowing in my mind and my heart that it is possible.

Thoughts and feelings on my medicated birth after wanting and planning for a natural birth:

I have had some difficulty with the fact that I didn't make it what I wanted it to be.

I kept thinking, "I need to keep an open mind and be ready to have medicine if that's what I believe I need" and I know I have read things that say "Don't set yourself up to feel bad if the natural birth doesn't work out because it really is about having a healthy baby and you shouldn't feel disappointed because you got your healthy baby in a way that wasn't planned.

But I have some thoughts on that: If you never set yourself up for disappointment aren't you playing life too safe? Honestly I was disappointed and I even shed some tears on the fact that I had failed the birth I had wanted. Not to say that my birth was horrible because it was actually really smooth and perfect and there were no complications for the baby or myself (other than the placenta thing at the end) but I recovered great and the baby is doing awesome. I was disappointed that I didn't get the actual birthing experience I was hoping for and that's okay. I'm okay with that fact because that meant I had a dream. It's okay to dream and sometimes dreaming means being frustrated or disappointed at times but if you never dream it how could it ever even be a possibility? That's like shutting off a complete possibility before it even happens just because you don't want to be disappointed. Na- I'm good with being disappointed and happy about my birth at the same time.

And in the long run I am so very happy I attempted to learn all I did and I am so happy in the fact that know of this program and have read all these stories and seen actual births that aren't traumatic. Births can be powerful and wonderful. I truly believe that.  And my birth was that. It was calm and there was no screaming   involved in the least. I just know that I could have relaxed more and trusted more in my body.

Conclusion:

HypnoBabies gave me the confidence I needed going into labor. I needed to hear that birth wasn't a scary thing. I needed to know that there were other women who believed in that and were able to have their children without medicine and live to say that it wasn't these horrible experiences I know a lot of women go through during birth.  I am a huge fan and would recommend it to anyone interested in finding out how you can relax your body and the amazing thing a woman's body is meant to do: give birth.

I love love love HypnoBabies and will definitely be using it again in the future;)




Friday, August 3, 2012

He's BACK!

We had to re-create some photos from the day before he left on his mission.
Yep, still a dork:)

Ward and Bethany are so tall now!

Oh Cassy.

Jay's hair is a little more under control these days ha ha.

Wayne grew another inch or so it seems.

2 Years

We anxiously waited with a few other families at the airport, each time gasping when we would glimpse a black suit emerging into view.

How two years have gone by that quick is amazing to me.
He left a few months after Jay and I were married and now we have a child.
Ward has grown at least a foot or two and Bethany is taller and older with braces.
It's really been two years? I cannot believe it.

At long last Elder Forrest Wayne Yorgason descended the escalator welcomed by hollers and whoops and cheering from our family. I was so happy to see him and some tears welled up, but I held them back knowing that I would embarrass him if I showed him my emotions. I knew just how he would react-just kind of smile and turn away probably from embarrassment. It's like he likes the attention but doesn't like to show that he likes it or something. When he came to greet us we each placed candy lei around his neck and smothered him with hugs. I tried to get pictures but I was just excited and almost forgot so it was amazing I even turned my camera on and got the blurry ones that I did.

We are so happy to see this face again! Welcome Home Elder Yorgason!!!!!!!!!

How come he is still sooooo good at fusball? I will beat you yet brotha!