- We made it to my brother's wedding on March 8th in Manti!!! Story: I have given my brother a hard time about having his wedding on the 8th when my due date was the 11th so when I had the baby early he called the hospital and told me that he knew it would work out- he was right! Then, I realized on the night before that my temple recommend had expired in February! So I did some calling around and the Bishop and Stake President met with me Friday night and then we drove down to my parent's house so we could be a little over halfway to Manti. I won't bore you with details of how horrible it was for Grant- the baby was great! Newborns sleep so well! I am so happy she does so well in the car seat. Poor Grant. Poor Jay. So Jay got to watch the kids while I went to the ceremony. I am so happy I was able to make it to it though- it's so special to just be there and see your little brother and new sister get married in the temple and be reminded of how special it really is. I wish Jay could have been there- I just didn't want anyone holding the baby. That plan didn't really work out but come on...who can resist a little tiny itty bitty baby? I know it's hard and I love my family so it was hard to not just show her off and share the baby love. It was special to see my grandma hold her though- I need a generation photo! Hello! Why didn't we think of that???! Next time perhaps.
- We also made it to the reception! This is where Grant really lost it in the car- he didn't sleep at all and was sooooo tired but "luckily" there was a candy bar there....yah...anyway this was a special day and unique in a lot of ways. I don't know if we will choose to make it that long of a day again for Grant- it was pretty rough but we had help from aunts and uncles and my mom and dad were happy to distract Grant and he still had some fun there- he started a dance party which was super cute. It's fun having two kids- but also extremely difficult if you are going to be in the car for 5 hours at a time---- I just wouldn't recommend it. Ever. If you can, avoid it, at all costs.
- Talking cloth diapering. I started getting discouraged because talking to a bunch of people about it lately has seemed like they just don't get why I would do that. Why spend more time doing diapers when you could do the disposables so easily? Well, to me, it's obvious: save money, they are cuter and better for baby's bums and the environment. Plus, I don't know, it just feels good to me to feel like I'm doing something at home that makes things a little better for everyone all around. My job is at home so if I can save some money at home doing what I am doing anyway- changing diapers and doing laundry- why not? And the covers are so cute and it really is easier than you would think. Anyway I was feeling kind of bad about it just because of people's reactions to it so Jay and I talked and he said that the money we save doing that should go towards something awesome to make us really excited about the money we are saving! So, we are starting a vacation fund. Every month I do cloth we put the money away and save it for something fun that year. So now when people ask I have something awesome to tell them even if I would have done it anyway. It is excited to think we could do that though.
Physically: I feel pretty good- tired? yes (my fault though- has nothing really to do with not having the time at night to sleep- just my choices of staying up late). The only real problem has been pooping. TMI? Probably- sorry- but really I like recording real life and this is real. I have been really trying to figure out how to not make it so painful- I need to drink more water and eat more fiber...something! Because I dread it soooo much- it's worse than anything I can imagine. Is this just something that moms just deal with after birth- I never hear people talking about it (well, it is something you probably wouldn't talk about normally huh? "How's pooping for you? Great! I ate blah blah blah today and my poop was awesome!" Maybe guys talk about this more than women but really? Come on- there has to be some secrets somebody knows about to help postpartum mamas!)
Then, my back is having those problemos again. boo. I went to the chiropractor before the wedding and she could barely move me because I am soooo tight. Well, I am breastfeeding and trying to figure all that out and holding a new baby while you feed is hard to have good posture because I feel like they pop off a lot easier and then you have to latch them back on. Then, I try to recline but I have a toddler who sees that as an opportunity to practice climbing on baby and me! I think I need a good recliner or I am going to die. Okay- it can only get better from here right?
A positive thing is I can fit in most of my clothes again! I still have 20 pounds to lose to reach my pre-birth weight but I'm not that concerned about that because it seems that I get the lucky draw of being someone who loses weight from breastfeeding so yay for that! Plus having a toddler nursing and a baby? I mean I could probably eat so much- what is it? Like 500 extra calories for breastfeeding baby? So I could safely bet on 800-1000 and probably still lose weight. I really am not worried to much about that at this point though-and you can tell by what I am choosing to eat- it's been fun but I am ready to at least get those calories with healthier options.
Emotionally: It feels so right to have the baby join us- it feels so normal and perfect but at the same time I am realizing that somehow I need to figure out how I'm going to keep up with everything. Something has to go- at least for a while. So I think that might be my computer time. Really, I don't know how much time I spend but Jay and I talked about it and I think Sundays will be my time to spend an hour or so and blog and check emails etc. I just have to keep the laptop tucked away otherwise Grant just wants to watch Bambi and Three Pigs and De Wolf all day and I've tried emailing but Grant loooovvvves practicing his letters and numbers on the keyboard and like I said, he loves climbing so he'll just climb all over. I think I also have to give up make up for a while and doing my hair...darn it because it's so fun sometimes to look pretty. Jay says he likes the no make up look...plus we save money doing that so awesome! I think I have a new staple for doing my hair: just french braiding/twisting it up and wearing it down and curly later in the day or the next day- it seems to work fairly well with no curling iron required.
