Personalities. Welcome to My Heart And Brain.

Have you heard of the book Aura Personalities?
This book is AMAZING.

Like amazing 

amazing

amazing.

I've taken personality quizzes before and tried to figure out my ideal career and what makes me tick but you guys- when I read the chapter in here called "Indigo-Crystal" it was like someone took my heart out of my body and looked into my soul and read it and wrote down what they saw. I mean every sentence just HIT home like SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS MY HEART!!!!! I've never even been able to put into words how I feel and SHWOOP!!! Someone just scooped out my feelings and explained all of them.  

Staci Sadler is the coolest. Check out her website: http://www.aurapersonalities.com/ 

She has some amazing gifts to be able to write this book. 

If you know me or want to know me, here we go :)  I am who I am. This is me. My mom kind of laughed because she's like, "why are you letting someone in a book tell you who you are?"  It's not like that- like I said, it's been me reading it and my heart just jumping and shouting at me: "YES!!!! This is you!!! . 

Can I give you a glimpse at my personality?

I am primarily Indigo-Crystal with secondary Yellow.
What does that mean?
I'll tell you:

Indigo-Crystal is the "Commander" personality. Yep. (You have to know when I first read this I was ashamed and sad that I related to it- I didn't like it! I want to be the soothing person who is just friends with everyone but here we go- this is it and there are reasons why everyone is so different). 

Here are some quotes from the book:

COMMANDING CHANGE

Indigo-Crystals do not have the luxury of denying what is. Truth is an active taskmaster for them, and will not let them alone. Their job is to be brash and direct. You cannot wake sedated masses with soothing words; shaking and shouting are in order, and Indigo-Crystals are the ones to do it.

DIRECT IN WORD & ACTION

Indigo-Crystals power-punch clear, direct truths to the minds of anyone and everyone within their reach.

Indigo-Crystals say things that are disarmingly abrupt and direct. They use powerful, succinct and oftentimes very authoritative words without prepping people for the weight of them. Much to their dismay, Indigo-Crystals make people uncomfortable with their directness. This is hard for them to accept about themselves, though most of them are aware of it- it is hard to miss people getting rattled right before their eyes.

*This is where I started crying because I see people all the time get so rattled by anything I say- it's just I don't have the skills (or gifts) to prepare people for information- I just have the info so I shove it at people- very much like force :) Do you still love me people out there? Just wait...there is more....

People are offended less by content than by delivery with Indigo-Crystals. Although content can be quite abrupt, it is timing and the asking that is often missing in the delivery. They just do not think before they speak. Thoughts come into their minds fully formed and they share them immediately, and fully.

Here's some more section titles on this personaltiy type: Don't you dare laugh!

FEEL UNAPPRECIATED

SOCIAL RULES ELUDE THEM

Okay you can laugh about the social rules thing....yah....I get it...they do elude me!!! ha ha!!! Most of you- my friends and family get the social rules thing and are very kind and forgiving of my lack thereof so thank you.

It says this about the social rules thing:

...they watch closely for cues but feel frustrated and out of their depth when trying to mirror them, annoyed that such rules even exist....They watch for loopholes in the system and, if there is a way to abolish unnecessary social rules, Indigo-Crystals will find it, and liberate the rest of us when they do.

So that's a neat twist on it right? So when I figure out which ones we don't need, I'm going to toss those aside and make it easier for you too- do you know Anne of Green Gables? She totally is the peculiar one and does not abide the "rules" set that everyone has on how to act. She is my example for this- I hope I can be like her!!! I just love her.

Here are some more:

LITERAL & HONEST

REACTIVE IN RELATIONSHIPS

HYPER-PRESENT & SINGLE-FOCUSED

LEARN SOCIAL RULES ONE-ON-ONE

TEACHERLY DEMEANOR

GUARDED & SERIOUS

LOST & FOUND
This section talks about how there are extreme feelings of knowing-it-all to feeling completely lost. When lost, draw inward, when found share everything with everyone. Totally fits.

MORAL COMMANDERS

...They will usher in monumental change, not by force but by relentlessly broadcasting the error of our ways, and educating us about the actions that we need to take, until we take heed. It is their gift, their job, their mission, and they have to do it regardless of the consequences. Indigo-Crystals want to live truthfully. They want to say what they think and what they know, and they want the same in return from the whole world. ...(their)intentions are pure. They do not wish to offend but they do wish to extend truth. They think they are making statements in calm words, but we are experiencing megaphone blasts in the face...

So this is me being totally vulnerable and just letting you see me. There are am. I'm sorry about the blasts to the face. I really am- but finally reading this book, I can see that the world at large needs me- like I have a mission here. I belong here. There you have it. Nice to finally get that out there so you know who I am and hopefully can just give me a little patience as I practice my so called "gifts" of this personality I have. 

Luckily for me, I also have Yellow personality right there with this one- you are familiar with yellow I think? Happy, social, out-going, FUN.  Thank goodness for the yellow part of me that helps out with this other one. 

Yellow is the Motivator:!!! Yay!!!

SUNSHINE
Yellows are like the sun, radiating warmth to others from their whole being. They shine all of the time, except when they are momentarily eclipsed by sadness, disappointment or frustration- their own or someone else’s. Like a stray cloud moving across the face of the sun, the gloomy mood of a Yellow passes as quickly as it comes.  In fact, they can be called dispersers of rainclouds for the rest of us. With their genuine, lighthearted nature, and natural ability to let go of hurt or angry feelings once expressed, it is difficult to maintain a low mood in their presence

EMOTIONS ON THE SURFACE

Like children, Yellows are close to the source of their emotions. They could not hide them, nor would they think to. The emotions of Yellows, whatever they might be at any given moment, are right on the surface, easily expressed and easily read. Everyone knows exactly how Yellows feel at any given time. They manifest emotions clearly and without guile. Yellows do not harbor hidden agendas or ulterior motives. They are who they are, and it is as obvious as the weather.

EMOTIONALLY TRANSPARENT
Others might call them moody, but really they are just refreshingly transparent with their feelings, even as adults.

TENDER-HEARTED & FORGIVING

LIVE FULLY IN THE MOMENT

PHYSICALLY ENERGETIC

MOTIVATORS

TRUSTING AND GULLIBLE

ABILITY TO BEFRIEND ANYONE

SOCIALLY INTERACTIVE
The key with Yellows is interaction. If they are interacting, they are happy. And they are happy interacting because they feel useful. It is in interaction that their gifts can be fully manifest.

CURIOUS EXPLORERS

KINESTHETIC LEARNERS & DEMONSTRATORS

ENGAGING & INTERACTIVE TEACHERS

TEACHING US THAT MOVEMENT IS HEALTHY

CENTER-STAGE PERFORMERS

PERFORMANCE ANXIETY

PROLIFIC KINESTHETIC ARTISTS

FANTASTIC SALESPEOPLE

HOPEFUL LIGHTS

CHARISMATIC

ACCEPTING & OPEN

THEIR GUT IS A SECOND BRAIN

HEIGHTENED SENSORY SYSTEM

FRETTERS

ENCOURAGE & LOVE THEM

There you have it! The way I understand it is there are a couple colors that influence your personality the most, then you have additional colors that add to your unique personality. There are a lot of people with a primary personality color but you get so many different gifts because there are different parts that make up how they use, say the "yellow" gifts they may have.

So you want to read the book now- and figure out your color? I have to say, it has 

Changed.

My.

Life.

Changed my life! I used to deny my feelings or be too shy to admit I feel something or say something was wrong with me for feeling the way I do and I would be so ashamed of my abruptness or that I wasn't like someone else I love and admire. 

But there is a need in the world for everyone. Every gift. There are weaknesses of course and things to improve with every gift we have but we need everyone's gifts and energy they offer the world. As I've looked at the way the world is going and I'm seeing terrible things happening- I can see why I would have this personality or these gifts, even the social rules eluding me- allowing me to speak, to defend, to stand up for what I believe in and be honest and true with my feelings and knowledge. I know I still have tons to improve on and learn to use these gifts to do the most good- but don't we all? And my gifts are needed and valuable and my energy is this commander energy- but I want to do good and want to bring about change in the world. 

You want to know what I want? Ready world for the BLASTS TO THE FACE?!!!! Cause I'm fired up ready to go!

-People to understand their bodies and how to be healthy- truly heal and have their bodies functioning at top notch, the way God designed us- so many chemicals and additives and everything in EVERYTHING that is being produced nowadays (because it's cheaper to make fake stuff than the real stuff that is actually good and healing for our bodies) is so toxic to our hormone function and the way our synapses in our brains connect and just so so much on how our bodies operate. I know we get to have trials in our life and some people need to go through certain things but isn't it cool to think that God has also provided ways for us to HEAL? Not just cover up, but HEAL!!!! I get so excited.

-Animals deserve to be treated humanely. There are so many animals being mass-produced that are crammed into little cages and they can't even walk because their bodies grow too fast for their muscles to develop to allow them to WALK. And we buy this meat and put them on our tables and eat them. Not that we want that to happen but our food is so far removed from us and we have a billion other things to worry about and we don't want to pay double the price for chickens that were treated nicely that we just ignore that there are animals suffering. And I believe God gave us animals for our use- it's in the scriptures- but I also don't believe we should ever allow them to be treated the way so many of them are. They are living, breathing, FEELING creatures. They are meant to be happy on this earth too.

-To stop abortions- don't even get me started on Planned Parenthood right now. I know God has a plan for every one of those precious souls but it just makes me sick to my stomach that this is going on in our world. That babies are being "extracted" "intact" to allow for more harvesting on non-damaged tissue!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?!!!!

-People to know Christ.  I haven't really known Him and when you finally start to understand that He is SO REAL- you want everyone to know about Him.  You want everyone to know what He has done for us. There really is someone, our brother, who did this act that I don't know if anyone can fully understand or comprehend- but he made it possible for ME to change. I have had a lot I've needed to change and the only way I'm able to do that is through Him. There are a lot of tools and things out there to help in the process but ultimately the only way for us to really ever change is to use the atonement. There really is something called the atonement- this powerful act that someone pure and perfect and loving did for us so we could change our bodies/minds/hearts/spirits/lives and return to Heavenly Father. We came here to get all these tests and go through all these emotions and hard things and we CAN get back- through this thing that Jesus Christ did for us. HE IS THE WAY!!!!!

I have plenty more messages- I just know that I'm not ashamed anymore for who I am and why I feel so strongly about things. I'm so grateful for learning about why I am the way I am and how I can continue learning about how to use my gifts for good. I know there is a reason I'm on the planet- I belong here for some reason and the world needs my energy and my passion and my drive. 

And we need YOU too!!!! 

YOU BELONG HERE!!!!! 

Did you already know that?!!! 

Good if you did! And if not, join the party. 

Whoever you are reading this and read to the very end (ha ha longest blog post ever? Totally worth it though right?!!!!)- I just want you to know that you also have special gifts and energy and you belong here. There is a reason for everything that has happened in your life to bring you to where you are and you have gifts! We all have gifts! You have a mission and a purpose and gifts to share with the world. If you are confused about them or like me, don't even know that they are gifts and maybe have felt sad or ashamed because of the way you feel about things- maybe look into this book- or pray about it- 

YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!

Love to all of you <3

The Cemetery

This cemetery is probably the prettiest one I've ever seen. The trees are gorgeous and in perfect rows lining the pathways. It's the best place to bike. Grant and I always look for the squirrels. Most recently we found a squirrel that was "barking" squeaks at us. Every squeak elicited a laugh from Grant so it was quite the scene to watch. I actually was kind of scared it was going to jump down and attack us- I felt bad for the poor creature so we left it alone and enjoyed the trees. 

It's so beautiful. 

I always thought cemetery's were supposed to be creepy but I always feel curiously peaceful about all these people. All the love they shared during their lives. That's what I think about as I look at each name and inscription. They each had their struggles and heartaches and triumphs and joy. The word "romantic" always goes through my mind as a word to describe it.

What a lovely place and I love living close enough to visit frequently. 

I'm excited for what it will look like in the fall with all the bright leaves and with fresh fallen snow. Won't that be just lovely?